Tuesday, November 10, 2009

im so tired..

much work to be done..

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Saturday, November 7, 2009

why cant you just reassure me and explain..

why cant i get your heart.. why isn't there any sincerity.. why i feel so messed up again.. flicker minded.. ended up with disappointment again.. again and again.. it added up.. is it a yes or no? i don't wanna get into that state.. but... it bring us nowhere.. things changes and people never learn nor get it.. what a day.. should it be happy or...

i miss the days with you.

meet up shall we? leave all those aside..

release me..

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Friday, November 6, 2009

gone case.. its really aching.. still aching.. YES, MY BACK!!! TT.TT

hais.. i wonder do you really know.. whatever happens, humans cant be ditch aside like this.. from a point of view it may be serious, from another will be easier.. does anyone thought for others before? i dont know.. im kind of down.. emo... whatever.. did you care..? sigh.. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.. dont like it slap me.. wake me up from these nightmares..

if its not tmr,

i'll go to the doctor

P.I.S.S.E.D

~ { 11:12 PM }
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my back hurts..

please break it apart.. URHHHHH!!!!!%#^$#&#$$

its so irritating.. its so uncomfortable.. cant sit straight nor stand.. sigh... its... annoying... damn!!! painful... painful... painful... pain....

was very delighted awhile ago before the ache started.. we finally finished two of our presentations.. that means, TWO DOWN!!! MUHAHAHaHAHAHA.. many more to go, but nevermind~ looking on the bright side of life... i think i was over nervous just now.. HA!!! cant speak well in the UPE presentation, fortunately, it got better in the HSM ones.. phew~.. but what makes me feel so light and happy was, WE GOT THE HIGHEST IN HSM!!!! hahahaha... alvin peeked at the list and saw our group had the highest.. weeeeeeeeeee~~~~ not regretting of scarifying my sleeps.. YAY~~~~ heee...

other than YAY 1, i got YAY 2!!! its Galvin's birthday today~!!!!! hee.. ponning HSM lecture to celebrate with him later.. :x its my first time pon hor.. im still very guai... LOL... heehee... galvin treated all of us ice coffee too!!! yippeeee~~~ heehee.. well.. was kind of down these days, but today will be my happiest day bah!!! heeheehee.. we will be going yum cha~!!! heeheehee.. my first yum cha record in my life.. im so qi dai!!!! :)

To you: i dont know.. but seems tedious to communicate with you.. you wont understand any bit unless i tell you.. but we dont even have the time to talk.. feel so far apart.. am i doing the right thing..? though its the wrong method... for your archery wise, it will help u when u train more bah.. but as in the stand of your girl, its a total insecure.. i dont know if i really know you.. what u like.. i had no idea about them.. everyday's anticipation became small little scars.. im afraid how long can i endure.. the strength that pull me through all these.. though u had no idea what im facing these days, its really quite bad.. im super duper unlucky.. many things came upon me.. well, keep that aside.. i dont know.. what should i say that you will understand.. maybe to you, you may think this relationship is a burden.. you have no time to waste on.. but well, i need commitment.. even if you had a big project or competition what so ever, i hope for little little moves that brings up the initiatives.. i know u have no time for those.. well well.. forget it.. all the best for you...

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thanks peeps who are worrying and caring~~~

love you peeps!!! :)

~ { 1:56 AM }
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oh man...

i hurt my back again...

its acting up again i should say..

well.. tired.. but mentally its awake...

just finished UPE interview and slide plus hospitality's presentation slides too.. both presenting tmr.. awwww~~~ felt kinda weird though.. dots.. sigh... these few weeks many many things happened to me.. most were quite bad.. so no use keep thinking of them.. while, tried to over come one by come and i reached where im standing now.. hope polite to be over soon and good.. well, im quite worried.. but i dont know.. the feeling inside, nobody can describe it.. i cant too.. its just so mixed up.. i got over that matter already, going in or not isnt what i could choose.. since its this way i shall accept.. its all up to the commitment.. so yep.. if u are worrying about that matter, i can reassure you, im kind of enlighten now.. after so many stuff happening non stop, i kind of take and go feeling already.. well.. one more day to weekends... stand stronger..

anyhow..

its late..

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Thursday, November 5, 2009

zzz...

cant even tell you whats my nightmare..

cant you just stay awake for another 2 minutes?!

the only time we can talk...

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Wednesday, November 4, 2009

i shared my dream with mummy, and she told me if any dreams thats about teeth dropping is unlucky.. someone will get it.. its a family thing.. and i'm afraid of that too.. has been extremely unlucky since school started.. and bro went army and many many other stuff.. sigh.. :( i dont know.. having this mixed feeling.. chaos.. and... emo...

afraid.

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ehhhh..

why the answer wasn't not me...???

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Tuesday, November 3, 2009

wooooot..

bathed and feel much more refresh now..

im still very tired to do that property tutorial for tomorrow, but thats my fate~.. blahhh... just found out what happened to my toe that hurts so much after this morning.. =.= i kicked the stairs while rushing to school today.. that bridge near school.. that alot of aggregates that one.. =.= pain like #$^#%@$^%.. now i finally understand why.. dots.. i had never leave my toe nails long before, before i can get it long, i'll got to bear the pain.. when i was a kiddy till im old enough to cut it myself, mum always helps me to cut them.. the cons were, she often cut too deep in.. and here i am.. haha.. well well.. i kicked the rough aggregates and rush to class.. didnt even know it bleeds.. zzzz.. no wonder so painful la.. dots.. well, its good hurh.. at least i know im alive.. i feel alive.. dots..

im damn unlucky this semester ok!! zzzzz.. its just 2 weeks and here i am, with the whole loads of problem here and there.. well.. some stuff are beyond my control.. i can do nothing about.. but have a thought, almost everything is beyond my control.. well.. should i spill them out? hais.. forget it.. it will be better just keep inside myself.. little little things.. it cant be compared to yours.. yea, polite may be a stress event till you get it.. its not the reason to let yourself be grumpy.. whatever they are.. think about what im going through too.. afterall, life carries on and on..

tough to be going through all these..

but someone told me before, 'these' strengthen me and develop a stronger person..

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its bursting and breaking...

the worst semester ever..

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Monday, November 2, 2009

tomorrow's jap test..

im dead..

TT.TT

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i miss you.

boarded 93 to macritchie and transfered 74 to school...

on my way to mac, i saw this yellow t-shirt guy.. his back view really does look like javier!!!! i really thought thats him!!! but after a thought, jav shouldnt be anywhere near that spot at the time.. so i waited to peek at his face.. :x and true enough, its other people.. TT.TT roar!!!! was so happy till i saw his face.. i felt a bucket of water fell onto me

hmmmmmm...

this whole day, it is really bothering me.. i just cant swing it away.. its not him nor xiao hua.. its.. jack.. is it real or its just merely my instinct.. i really was being bothered badly.. i just cant stand it.. i hate things to be this way, but its merely a misunderstanding isnt it..? its a two hand clap thing.. even if i think its not his fault, things wouldnt change till he get it too.. and btw, im not guilty of it.. i did all i could and i finish my task.. who should be guilty of leaving all his responsibility to someone else and also doing the bad mouthing? hey guys, please la.. be more clever.. just by listening to one side of the story doesnt help.. i hate having some stuff over there that just bothers me.. its a long story since a year ago.. but im true to myself.. im definitely not guilty.. but maybe just alittle uneasy on the reply of facebook.. shouldnt be so childish..

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Sunday, November 1, 2009

omg.. i think i still got loads to accomplish..

awwwwww~ dont wanna care.. shall finish one by one.. @@

hurhhhhh~~~~ TT.TT

~ { 11:01 PM }
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its useless for me to check it everyday isnt it?

everyday, most of the time.. its disappointing..

nothing gonna work.. its effect is from the heart..

nothing will succeed like this..

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Saturday, October 31, 2009

it really stopped as i predicted...

its useless hurh.. nothing is gonna work like this..

cherish it, or its gonna be nothing at all..

i created it, so shall delete it myself..

when the limit is up..

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im really very bored of doing...

feeling so rebellious inside. can i quit doing?

really.. very... bored.. really.. the whole day..

whats with me now.. so restless..

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tonnes and tonnes.

coming to blog a little before i start my day.. :)

two weeks just swam like that... hahaha.. its horrendously quick. i didnt even notice when was the event and there goes the week.. so now, i really had loads of work.. normally, i would also take note of it, but those projects are really early.. lecturers are giving out all their projects already.. and here i am, so sotong ..

didnt go for training today and hope i can complete most of them.. i must... TT.TT

shall go shooting tmr..

-Jap work, quiz+test

-Marketing tutorial

-Property tutorial

-Project management - 10 straits time article

-Hospitality tutorial - project based

-Urban planning interview editing

-Environment project

-Urban project

-House work-hamham cage =.=

love birds stops holding hands..

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Friday, October 30, 2009

Its.... FRIDAY~!!!!! :D

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~

thought about it, should i not delete some of my reckless posts? so after awhile when i grow older, i can read through and know how childish or hot tempered i am the last time.. can i??

i know i have been changing these 2 years, especially the one whom never had thought of speaking those vulgarities out but instead, enlighten some that do... so why am i acting so recklessly these days? i dont know.. an act of distress.. an act of frustrations...

well.. didnt had my urban planning presentation today.. half of the class will be presenting next week.. i finally recalled what im lack of.. its the pictures!!! so yippee~ i can edit the movie and present a better one...

my back is feeling uncomfortable... its the feeling i used to have.. cant control nor cure it... no position that makes me comfortable.. its annoying and irritating...

gonna stay in school after lectures for xixi's concert today evening.. xixi = joanne.. she is representing BE division for the singing competition today.. i pulled dar together too.. :x hee.. hmmm.. i dont feel myself these few days, truly speaking.. i feel weird.. not being myself.. i feel my schedules are messy.. and cant seems to settle down.. polite is nearing and im still shoot like shit.. how the earth is still spinning.. damn..

having an hour break now before another two hours lecture starts.. im so bored and tired.. this is so sickening...

dont know whats happening..

hoping for a little chemistry..

and...

taggy box is so quiet..

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Thursday, October 29, 2009

utterly...

you know what.. my back is fucking ache..

at least someone today saw the stuff i was bringing and said i shouldn't have such big bags.. its too much for me to carry and i will not grow taller.. and he lifted up my bag and reassured.. and that was without my laptop in it.. and guess what you said... because im lack of calcium.. sigh.. sometimes, sometimes... really really hoped you would 'ga ga lai'.. what u think is good.. i saw another scene today.. that was really nice.. warm.. but too bad, it isnt happening on me.. well.. im not always in a good mood too.. that funny feeling started since the day i know the result.. totally lost interest... its so difficult to stand up and not to even think of moving beside you... its an impossible case for me now..

damn moody..

can i release them?

#$%^&*^%&%$#@

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Wednesday, October 28, 2009

I'm so FULL~

ate alot of junk food recently.. hahahas...

my mouth cant stop man.. ate milo powder, ice cream and tidbits.. omgomgomg... of course with my meals too.. so u can imagine, how much fat will be growing soon.. hahaha..

my work are piling again.. sigh.. tired.. and LOADS of stuff havent start yet.. lecturers are giving out those projects already.. sigh.. they are rushing us man.. a little stressed up.. but i think im quite slack.. hahaha.. slack all i can.. dots.. so troublesome to have presentation on friday.. im so dead.. interviewed yet edit.. im like a snail... i need some motivations.. but im afraid a flick of finger may flick my shell away too.. TT.TT nowhere to sleep then.. :x

i have been over spending these few days.. sigh..

golden's limping isnt getting any better.. im worried.. but what else can i do.. im scared.. but it isnt helping..

should have loads of stuff on my mind but i cant think of much now.. well.. im not selected in the team.. reasons behind it, and i agreed too.. so yep.. looking on the bright side.. dont rise it up again kies.. i cant predict what may happen...

mum bought this white dress so hoping i will wear for sis wedding? and its so oh my tian... its like... Cinderella that white dress?! omg.. i cant wear it out but i got to say, its pretty.. but if i wear that out for shopping, people may think im insane!!! oh my..

old uncle....

honestly, i don't feel that well at all..

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Tuesday, October 27, 2009

FUCK!!!

I REALLY HATE THIS!!!

I QUIT!!!

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im always the extra one.. if i weren't there.. if there is a better replacement.. if... what if... it does hurt.. but im used to it already.. so what.. sigh.. i deserve it.. the odd one out..

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*Ting+YiJun+Angel*

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hope that they will be kept updated and active..

my gifts. <3

~ { 9:28 PM }
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cramp sucks.

a little emo..

but whatever it is, i'm not gonna stuck with it and cry.. zzzzz..

had a very painful morning, however, with warmth.. :)

really had a very bad cramp.. took two pills and still.. i cant stay still but curled up and rolling everywhere.. i don't know why.. has been quite awhile since i had such a pain...

had my jap quiz today.. was quite confidence with myself until i found out i wrote the population and the 'ku' word opposite.. it should be 127 when i wrote 137.. and 'ku' thats <> .... thats so sad la... oh my... unacceptable.. why those chim words i remember and not these.. zzzz.. thats so kuku and careless.. what the hell..

four hours lessons are really really too long.. so hard to concentrate.. i had myself playing this and that to make it seems alittle bit faster.. damn... waste of time... there is even more work to be completed by next week!!! and a writing test plus quiz... TT.TT awwwwwww~!!!! how to remember so many words sia~!!!!!

didnt went for training today...

thought i could rest from the cramp and also complete my work.. but guess what.. I MET YI JUN AT THE TPY BUS STOP!!!! :D weeee~~ heehee.. it has been 1.5 years since i last met her!!! omg.. im very happy till she said her first sentence... ''hello auntie!'' i totally sian.. LOL.. ok.. i know its kidding.. hahaha.. im still very happy to see her.. then accompanied her to wait for angel and in the mean while, we saw charmaine too~!! :D ftp gathering sia.. hahahhaa.. if its real, i'll be very happy.. i love people to gather together.. hee.. and of course those im close with.. its feel of happiness.. so we chat at the red circle luh.. :)

came back and was panicking.. i afraid that dad will find it too tired to take my interview.. while, that all, it doesnt seems like im interviewing, while it looks more like he is doing all the talking.. :p thanks daddy~ you are the BEST!!! hee.. :) daddy didnt mind to repeat himself for my needs, preparing himself and stuff.. its so warm.. :) and now, i got to do the editing and subtitle stuff.. urhhh... i feel so lazy.. hahaha..

sis wanted to jio me for prawning and after i rejected, she asked to go ktv.. :x its like so rare and honored.. but i dont have time.. she got her boy boy but mine? impossible for him to go out.. TT.TT well.. so in the end, i rejected as well.. dammit..

boo

choo wasted my rice :(

To Piggy: BLEAH..

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Monday, October 26, 2009

Konbanwa~ (good evening)

hee.. took up my IS module as japanese for this semester.. it seems easy but hectic.. loads of knowledge will just be pushed to you and you got to swallow them.. urhhhh... i had indigestion last week!! HA!! hmmm, tmr is another four long hours of torture PLUS quiz!!! something like spelling, but just, in jap.. TT.TT without jo and lao po men.. im so depressed~~!!!!!

today's schedule was quite a tight one.. 9am to 5pm with lectures and tutorials.. woah... really.. its very hard to digest them and even STAY AWAKE!! dots.. worst is, we cant even sms.. its so boring~...

after school, met up with dar and went to bugis to fix my spects.. that supporting rubber was torn.. torn by golden and missy whom gave me a bang each.. too happy to see me home, ran and couldnt stop.. haiz... quite touchie though.. LOL...

and yep~ GUESS WHAT I MET?!!! its TIFFANY~~!!! hahahahhahah... she has brighten up my entire day.. hahahahas... really... :) heeheehee..

the spects guy was very nice.. haha.. five stars for his customer service~!!! heehee.. glad dar willing to accompany me there.. its monday and bugis street was so squeezy already.. roar~~~ had a nice curry puff and ching chow drink :)

went home and prepare for the questions for dad's interview and then mapled awhile.. teeheehee.. finally can get my belt!!! but was kind of bored, so ended up with bleach watching.. heehee.. and now.. im blogging :x

tata~

seems like our feelings revised 2 years back..

i'm so in love with you.

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Sunday, October 25, 2009

Loving you till the MAX!!!! :]

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Fortunate.

omg, im so fortunate to have my friends hor.. especially buddy.. always help me when im in need and never asked for any return... *sob, touchie~* i appreciate them loads :)

last minute seek for buddy's help to help me print notes.. :x project management notes.. teeheehee.. hmmm.. tomorrow, starting of another hectic week.. till the next short break, we'll hang it there.. muhahahaha..

hee... my bad this morning, i broke dad's flush in his toilet.. :x

didnt know how i got the strength but yes indeed.. but something strike me... the aura of property manager suddenly strike like an arrow.. lol.. i know its weird to use arrow to express but thats my style? LOL... hmmm.. anyway, dad fixed it.. felt bad not doing anything though.. :x dont know how to fix la~ the wired in the rectangular thing broke.. not my fault la~~~ TT.TT maybe too old ler.. teeheehee :x

hmmmm... slacked the whole day today?

but did all my work la.. updating the accounts, doing a little nihon work, thinking of the questions for Urban Planning's interview, changing of ham ham cages with dardar :), and sending of emails.. teeheehee.. yay~~~ hee..

well well..

shall blog a little everyday and then...

memories :3

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OHAIYO~!!!! (morning)

heeheehee.. its been ages since i really had my last serious blogging.. well well.. read a person's blog that change my mood, my feelings and my thinkings.. oh my.. we really did grown up didnt we.. everything changes through the time.. i read from the start of building the blog and yes.. found out alot.. wow.. hahaha.. thats memories.. yes, thats why i like you to be blogging.. at least, i know what you are thinking or have been thinking.. did we grew up and forgot how to speak? expressing ourselves? i felt alot.. well.. slowly, i'll be picking it back.. i'll be the first one, and the rest may start to pick it back... i really miss those good old days.. those perfect and wonderful days.. if there wasnt those posts, i think i might have forgotten everything about it.. forgotten what we have gone through together, and stuff.. its.. a very sweet and nice feelings.. i miss you.. really.. nothing will stay the same, i'll improve it.. :)

little little messages melted my heart.

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Saturday, October 24, 2009

oh man..

i just read something and was totally affected by it... it was damn sweet... and its our past.. YES!! ours... oh my oh my oh my.. shall i feel happy or disgraced? sigh.. oh my oh my.. feeling very messy.. omg.. i don't know.. its this so bad.. arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! if u were here at this moment.. i'll... definitely....

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Friday, October 23, 2009

its not my game..

what choice do i ever left with..

this is so fucked up...

how to smoothen them out...

icy cold.

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Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Lost In Time.

oh my oh my.. holidays had just passed without being notice.. currently feeling super vex.. vex with the work in school, vex in shooting, vex with my family, vex with golden's health and vex with the time.. i seem so lost, lost in nowhere to be found.. i cant keep track of anything useful.. it just like flying oversea.. its worst than that feeling.. i dont know.. very worried.. very very worried indeed.. what if... and really... so what world the world be... i dont know..

nothing is going smooth...

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Monday, October 19, 2009

i have forgotten how to communicate...

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hais..

im in utter speechless..

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Sunday, October 11, 2009

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Tuesday, October 6, 2009

enjoyed yesterday LOADs ^^

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Saturday, October 3, 2009

she IS very pissed.

struggled hard to wake up this morning... went training with the help of daddy sending me to the bus stop.. lucky enough, bus 52 came less than 3 mins.. everything went as usual.. met dolly on my way through SIM.. shot 30m with 80cm face.. had quite a bad score but better than last time bah.. guang zhao let dolly, clarene and i tried the stabs and it was fun!! dolly and i had the hang of it.. but i know, it cost like a bomb to me.. sigh.. be blissful with whatever i had bah...

tried to rush home after that but still... got screamed by mum on my way back home... zzzzzzz... receive missed calls so i called back and what happened? was very emo then.. but well well.. nothing is wrong.. i promised to be home to help.. and now... zzzzzz.. well, these days had many car accident around my are.. i wonder why.. today's was the worst? ambulance and police all came.. haiyaiyai..

had loads to say but now they are gone.. whatever they are, will you get them in and react after that? if not, its useless so i decided not to blog.. whats the point.. i wonder.. vanishing... will there even be a different? i doubt so... its so short and i wonder will it last?

i found her which had the same feeling from him..

well... what a disappointing result...

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Thursday, October 1, 2009

what an emo day...

damn unlucky, even the entrance to the train station..

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..

do you ever know?

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are they lies...?

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Tuesday, September 29, 2009

MILO IS SO CUTE!!!!

*javi's* ^^

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Wednesday, September 23, 2009

another nightmare..

clear and shocking.

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Monday, September 21, 2009

wo dao di shi ni de she?

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congratulations to jie :]

zhu ni xin fu!!

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bad sleep...

again.. i dream of school!!! oh my..

having only 2 friends with me that i know in that school and we went oversea studies.. the lecture was like super big.. can sit 2 thousand students bah.. and im in the middle right behind.. how to see the screen? dont even know what the teacher is teaching.. then after that, in classroom, sat in rows and got bullied by a group of ah lian? but my best friend sat beside me didnt help to against something or anything.. free time, the two of my close friends went missing.. and its really i,me and myself.. omg.. luckily its a dream or i wont wanna study in that condition.. zzzz.. the two friends... should i say it out..? nvm then...

again and again..

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Sunday, September 20, 2009

maple not fun anymore..

my char so lan!!!

everyday got ks..

zzzzzzzz...

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29.09.2009

nice date, ultra boring day.

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leave it.

just let me be alright?

just.. feeling vex.. this annoying feeling.. cant sleep well nor do anything nicely.. this feeling.. sigh.. i dont know.. its very bad.. i cant say this up, its horrible.. a word to mention, 'pathetic'. i went through my list of friends and only picked the one and only.. unfortunately, she was occupied.. thinking i can go alone, but.. i dont know.. that feeling disappeared after he left.. called mum to see if i can meet her up, but gave up eventually after three calls, nobody picked up.. went around central and went home.. this kind of feeling, very familiar yet seems... just.. argh.. feeling very bad.. that feeling just like shouting in the deserted village as :"ANYONE THERE?!"

when will it be my turn...

whatever i wished for went the opposite way..

this holiday, my goal will never be met..

not even one... well well.. thats desperate...

bad, bad, very bad...

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its a kind of torture..

slow and easy..

right deep in it..

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Saturday, September 19, 2009

I MISS HIKI!

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Friday, September 18, 2009

had a thought...

i killed her indirectly.. leaving the ants alone and hope i dont hurt them, they dont hurt me.. but im wrong.. thoroughly wrong... its a disaster leaving the little poor ones terrified.. owners who wants to keep pet, please take good care of them. PLEASE. yes, act for myself too.

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May God Bless You.

Loves from everyone.

especially KiKi, Choo and Me.

Truely sorry, my baby.

4.25PM

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Wednesday, September 16, 2009

weak..

really feeling very weak..

had the feel of blacking out a few times..

since last week, had a bad sore throat then the cycle of fever, cough and flu.. but they are short term ones.. e.g. one or two days.. but till the flu stage, seems like everything is coming back on a sudden.. that big ulcer too.. it seems like getting bigger everyday.. super duper annoying.. cant even eat properly.. TT.TT every meal i got to eat for an hour.. haiyaiyai.. its so painful..

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Saturday, September 12, 2009

Mapled with choo yesterday :]

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Friday, September 11, 2009

had a really boring day...

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10.09.09

went to natalie's place after training..

her friend gave her and i baby hamsters~ weeeee~~

hee.. she took the black one and i took the white one..

very cute.. but my nini just bitten me TT.TT blahhhhh~~~

teeheehee.. thanky nat, thanky nat's friend :)

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09.09.09

had another wonderful day with you <3

thank you choo. :)

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maple episode 2..

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Thursday, September 10, 2009

very tired O.O..

had training in the morning with a start of drizzling..

so we had no choice but to do stats.. after that was quite nua, had an early lunch and started shooting with 30m, first with 122cm then 80cm face.. score did not differ much.. 268 and 260.. but i had problem with my sleeves.. the string will be caught with my left sleeve and went to the left just like the opposite C.. zzz.. in the end, got a clip from chih chye to solve the problem.. but had bad release.. so yup...

and TOK after that.. with chih chye and dom.. hmmm.. things are better but form still not there yet.. in such a short time, my form still not stable enough to reach consistancy.. so yup.. much more room for improvement.. hmm.. after that, waited for juniors to shoot alittle more.. and off we go.. wei lin lead me to nat house and ta da~ i saw the hamsters.. they are so kawaii~~~ hahaa.. really.. super... there is a black and white for me to choose and i chose the white one.. hee.. her name is "nini"~!!! heeheehee.. super cute.. shall upload some pic soon.. thats all for today bah..

golden seems to like nini alot too.. :)

was puzzled on my way back..

but since its the choice i've chosen..

take it..

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Wednesday, September 9, 2009

very bored..

dont know what to do.. sigh..

emi got attacked by a cockcroach.. a medium white one.. called me over and blah blah blah... the cockcroach climb from her hair to her neck.. think is due to the earlier flogging.. i think i killed alot of insects these few days.. no wonder so many nightmares hurh.. sigh.. my area is vested with insects man!! sigh.. im so bored..

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i cant get a good sleep...

air con off, light on, missy barks, playing of missy and sugar, whine of golden,

having nightmares/dreams and missy snatch my pillow AGAIN!!! zzzz... i just want a good rest thats all..

and now!! i cant fall asleep with all the noise.. haizz..

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Tuesday, September 8, 2009

things have changed...

changes so much that even i cant recognise them..

was in great disappointment.. just like what she did to the blog i made for her.. exactly the same feeling.. but this time, it was greater.. sigh.. what else can i do? was desperately wanting to play with you since monday.. or maybe much earlier when the exams were going to start.. but now... sigh.. dont wanna touch it anymore.. its so.. sigh.. nvm...

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just not my day today..

pms? but its not now.. just moody...

im a total lousy archer.. broke another arrow today..

i thought if i up pound, my sight will be able to decrease, but i guess im wrong.. used my old wooden bow string.. but heard from choo, blah blah.. i've forgotten.. something gonna do with the string de... its just.. zzzz.. i dont know.. so the problem lies with me.. its me.. me me me... when will i ever been enlightened...?

shot 30m for today, 122cm face and 80cm face..

though my scores are improving alittle, but my grouping isnt there yet..

sigh.. i feel my right shoulder is tearing apart.. zzzz.. i dont wanna be weak nor i will give it up.. i know the only solution is to shoot more.. i really want for 6 straight arrows.. and... my shooting form to be stable.. please be stableeeee~~~~...

well.. for other stuff..

i know.. deep inside myself.. yea.. dont hope too high.. i know my day dreaming wont come through.. just.. be realistic pleasssse!! argh.... well.. i will, i will.. i will enjoy de.. just.. bear with it.. nothing we can do for the time being.. i know daddy is worried about my happen to me when i came back today.. it just not me.. im so guilty to spend money again.. my eslink card and stuff too.. told him i wont pay myself.. but.. the feeling inside isnt good.. :((((

tmr.. i was very looking forward for tomorrow.. but...

well.. i dont know.. everything was brought down... i guess it will be that.. i know.. and i will be more mature.. well.. sigh.. i dont know... im lost..

well..

shall stop here then...

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Monday, September 7, 2009

today had nothing much...

woke up around 9am after the haunted school nightmare.. zzz... so scary.. haizz... was stucked in the dream and yea.. hahah.. mentioned in the previous post.. :) then ate breakfast, magi mee!! :D then went to school and met up with nat,wei lin, jin teck, tong aun, choo and other juniors.. :)

went to alumni to makan and yea, ate mee goreng and milo dinosaur~~~ teeheehee~~ then yep... ohhhh... CHOO HAO XIN ALWAYS SNATCH MY FOOD~~~~ :p its true!!*muhahaha* everyone knows now~ teeheehee.. then yea.. went shooting after that while choo went for his diploma plus lesson till 5pm..

today's shooting was... considered bad..??

in the middle bah... for both 50m and 30m.. got the board but grouping was quite dispersed.. zzzz.. very sian.. and the worst was.. I BEND ANOTHER ARROW~!!! grrrrrrrrrr~.. now i left 5 usable arrow with one thats a little bend too.. haizzz... but all settled la.. teeheehee.. my saviour, yi jing giving me an arrow~~ :D weeeeeeee~~~ thanky yj~!! :D teeheehee.. well, back to today's shooting.. yea.. i missed and hit the pavement=arrow bend.. zzzz.. then yea.. went 30m instead.. shoot and shoot and shoot and still cant get a nice grouping.. its like one end and another will be like disperse.. just cant be consistant.. zzz.. blaahhhhhhh~~~ zzz.. shall train again tmr..

well well..

this was my last 30m end pic.. left with the 5 arrows.. zzzz..

was very pissed.. and i wanna remember this and do better tmr!!!

zzzzz.. wth..

on my way to school this afternoon.. ^^

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was being reminded...

9 years gone to waste..

10 years also have gone to waste..

i really really miss them... :(

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i think i know why i had that nightmare yesterday night.. =.=

i was schooling in that huanted school thats so unrealistic that only movies have that scenerio... and yup.. after reading the email.. =.= the siloso beach that one.. i dont know why.. just till night.. im still thinking hard on that case.. zzzz... i didnt even dare to go to the toilet alone or even brush my teeth.. =.=

all i can remember was the haunted school.. the vampire-like teacher =.= and the funny staircase.. zzzz... and and!! the classroom and the schedule too!!! everyday lesson was 9am to 5pm!!! i see ler then very sian!! lol... i still can remember about this!!! lol...

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dear likes the mices talking alot :)

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Sunday, September 6, 2009

err.. i think there are some errors with blogger...

it seems different.. wellwell.. for the last two pictures..

2nd last pic:

his little cute mole~

designed by: Me ^o^v

Last pic:

errrr.. after A&A night...

i was really exhausted.. :x *choo-psps*

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Choo+Ting <3

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2BO2 Rocks my poly life~!!!

Kenneth, YuXian,Andrea,Joanna,MeiHui,Galvin

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Archery Archery~!!!!

clarene:)

jin teck :)

clarene+guang zhao :)

my first turning shot for 50m..

at least three of them :x

*pink

Mr. Lin after his tiring end :p

intro Mr. Teck :D

Ta-Da~~~

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it seems funny with my blogger after reformat..

the loading of pictures.. it seems so stunborn to adjust it..

what has happened..??

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had photos to share~

some recently and some quite awhile ago.. :)

my msn :)

choo helped me to download :D

transformer bumble bee~!!! loves its shape :)

the two little ones.. :)

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Saturday, September 5, 2009

weeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~

it seems like i hadnt been updating my blog, but in fact, i updated in the private blog.. :D lol.. more of emo stuff la.. but after having a quick flashback, the archery training camp that has just ended arent that bad.. in fact, i have learnt to enjoy myself :) learning to shoot with stamina and stuff.. running, shooting and gaming.. its very fun :) *though i complain to hx alot.. :x hahahas...

today's shooting was the best so far.. its coming up.. hee.. but im lack of stamina still.. well well.. hee.. shot double 50m and a round of 30m.. though the score arent as well as the begining, i'll strive for it..(: the feeling is finally back. :]

yesterday had a great day out with choo.. hee..
went to my optician to fix my spect then to fu nan IT mall to fix my laptop, then went to orchard ion walk walk, then to cineleisure to watch G-force.. teehee.. in between. bum into derrick in the cine lift.. the world is really small.. hahas.. :x teeheehee.. ohh... went to taka to visit old empire too... choo went to see mitch&marc staff.. branda said choo and i grew fatter :x cham liao.. must control our diet~~~~

ohhh.. ate the jap fish cake and blueberry yami too.. hahaha.. hee.. they were really very nice la!!! but ion's food are really expensive.. :x wanna eat also heartache.. :p the the movie time, first time ordered the ice cream combo.. two cups of drinks, a large cup of popcorn and two little haagen dazs ice cream :D teeheehee~~~~ hee... first time wor~~~ and also those ice cream!! yummy~!!! hehehe.. im missing them already :x heehee.. and a very nice day spent yesterday la~~~ hahahah...

ohh.. then after camp, i came back and cut my toe nails... and at the same time, i cut the 'skin' away too.. thought those were skins but they are flesh!!! so after a day it swollen!!!! omg.. currently, its hurting like %*(!#%.. hahahas.. then those blue blacks of my arm that was hit by my string is recovering smoothly :D very fast.. hahahah.. YAY~~ :D hmmm... and painting of my nails have failed.. lol.. no talent in that.. haiyaiyai...

ohhh... in the mean while of lappy getting its hospitalized, choo lended me his lappy.. teehee.. thank you choo choo~!!!! hee.. hmmm.. think thats all bah.. hahahas..

OHHH!! I TIO SUNBURN~!!!! despite those sunblock applied.. :( cham liao.. i hope i'll regain my fairness before sis's rom.. :( ROAR~~~

mice: "right~"

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Sunday, August 30, 2009

camps camps camps...

going one tomorrow..
but i hate camps.. and furthermore its training camp!!
from 9 to 3 i nearly killed 2, so from 6 to 6 how many will i have nearly killed?!
not in a good mood today, in fact its horrendous.. fiery just like a machine gun..
anything that feels wrong would probably get shot by me...

i dont know.. IM JUST IN A TERRIBLE STATE TODAY!!!
urghhh... things happening.. most are so screwed up..
just... dont wanna continue..

hope after these coming fours days of training,
i'll survive and be stronger..

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wth.. thought could go food fair with you.. and also, thought you would be happy to hear there is... but i forgot you are not who you are anymore.. zzz... holiday.. rotting at home.. zzzzz.. sian.. going camp starting from tmr till thrusday too... zzzzz... holiday like that pass ler luh.. wth.. super bad mood... WHAT THE ING HELL.. zzzz

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Saturday, August 29, 2009

what are peaks when you are always at the trought..

had terrible shooting today... as usual..
i dont know.. i feel like having killed myself is much more easier than having a good arrow shot.. was so not in mood nor form and i nearly killed someone.. cant even anchor nor draw properly.. yes.. what you planted will be the fruits harvesting.. whatever it is.. im truely **pressed and **moralised.. so wanna get hidden and cut off all ties around me.. hope im not that small black dot that pollutes their life.. how bad can i be.. did i ever did something proud..? something that my friends and family will be proud of me..?? its so adding on every moment every time.. looking at them.. im so far behind.. can i chase up with them? or just.. hopeless.

even he is angry with me i think..
those tone and face.. tired perhaps.. but.. sigh... gz had a talk with me.. and he said a point too.. dont be so weak that people would look down on you.. and yes.. im trying hard to be upstill.. my mind thought differently as what i have had said.. but i wish i could.. do something.. something like the feeling i had before.. just 5 years before or so... lady.. im so down.. so wanted to say ^##%#!%$... sigh...

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Thursday, August 27, 2009

Im Finally FREE~!!!!!!!!

yay!! had my last paper today...
but was feeling very lost in the morning...
i screwed my law paper despite everything being done... felt so useless and all the craps in my mind.. they were so bothering.. was given 5 long questions and i got to answer 4 of them, but i only did 2++.. darn.. its so crappy... whyyyyyy am i always so inefficient?! bloody.. why cant i finish the two questions earlier whyyyyyyyy...

was in fact terrible with the misery till andrea and joanna's hugged with mei hui's pat on my shoulder and some sense into my brain.. i only hope is to did well in my 60%... and with the 2++ questions one properly.. urghhh.. well... i got to take it in.. if its proven that im not strong enough to pass on, i shall have more effort into it.. so yup.. i have faith in myself.. i hope so.. :x

went on, kenneth, yu xian, mei hui, joanna, andrea and i went to vivo for our 'post exam outing'. my first officially outing with them :x in the past, i had always had stuff on or cca, so cant join them.. well... if feels good they friends are around you.. :) love are all around. :)

was very guilty about the screwed up law paper, decided to send daddy a message.. and received no replies... i think he doesnt want me to stressed up too..??? im feeling even more inefficient la~~~ rawr..

back to vivo, we went to golden village and had a great time deciding what movie we should catch.. teeheehee.. they wanted 'final destination' which heard from dar that its quite bloody too.. then hui laughed and said 'orphanage'.. =.= LOL.. i looked at her and stun.. lol.. keep making fun of me.. hahahah... well well.. i dont know why so timid and doesnt even dare to look at those horrible posters.. but just.. dots.. lol.. then jo suggest the jack neo's new horror comdy.. lol.. i prefer that than others bah.. haha.. heard its not as scary.. lol.. then kenneth suggested to watch 'the proposal' as he had great instinct that the show will be a nice and funny one.. ohh ya.. why we didnt chose 'final destination' was that our little andrea and kenneth havent reaced their beauty 18 yet.. hahahha.. lol.. so yea, we cant purchase the movie ticket.. so we decided to watch 'the proposal' instead.. and it is really really a very nice show la!! i had a great laugh and and the romance part.. teehee.. and of cuz... choo hao xin too young to watch.. hahaha... :p

hee... then after that went outside to take the bus and found that it should be at the opposite bus stop instead. so we walked quite a long distance for the traffic light.. :d hui and jo soon took bus 80 off while ken and andrea took the mrt.. after awhile, yu xian went off too.. left me at the bus stop waiting for bus 57.. its damn long la!!! ohh ohhh.. i forgot some part of the journey and now i remembered.. :D we went to Daiso and Pet safari after the movie.. saw wei jian the ite archer whom join np archery.. teehee.. then went to pet safari saw the two taka cashiers.. lol... what a small world hurh.. teeheehee.... then yea.. pet safari has the grooming section and I SAW A VERY CUTE BREED!!! i cant remember its breed name.. hahaha.. then at the sales part I SAW THREE MONTHS OLD PUPPY CHOW CHOW!!!!! OH MY TIAN!!!! its a chubby bear bear la!!!! arhhhhhh~~~~ SUPER DUPLE KAAAWAAAAI~!!!!! saw a golden retreiver pup too!!! but i think my golden puppy period is much more cuter.. hahaha.. REALLY~~!!! if u seen before, you will get it.. teehee.. and.... I SAW BABBY DASHUND~!!!!!! OH MY TIAN MY TIAN!!! IT REALLY REALLY MELTED MY HEART~~~ urghhhhh.... if i can take one more pup :x hahahha.. nahhh... i still love golden the best.. hahha..

hee.. ohhh.. back to the bus 57... it came finally after waited for approx 30 min? then yea, got a seat and dont know when and how i fell asleep.. deep deep sleep.. really really very tired.. even during the movie.. hahaha... i slept 3 hours yesterday.. yes, ONLY~~~ .. hehehe.. dont know when and how i woke up after 30mins of ride to check where am i and to my surprise there is a guy sitting beside me and i was totally ignorant.. haha.. so my reaction was of course shock and i was in that blur blur sleepy mood.. lol.. then the guy had a jump too i guess.. lol... hahaha...

went to pass dar a little present for my jia you-ing and went off to meet jun rong for dinner at lorong 8 market.. saw a big group of ftp ah bengs bah.. didnt really see carefully.. hahah.. and i saw the cat on the cat in the market sleeping on the round chair.. the a kind lady came to deliver the food to the cat and yea.. the cat ate and after eating, the cat suddenly scratched very very badly all around.. think it has illness bah.. but the itchy-ness was madness i guess.. the cat was scratching all over and also turning and turning around.. its expression was like hell... its really... scary... i saw it with my own eyes.. itchy till it lied on the ground up side down and scratch till pee also flush out.. sign.. then it somehow crazily ran off.. 看了心很酸。。。

ate chao kuey tiao and grass jelly water... then after that walked home with jun rong.. had some talk with him too.. hahahaha.. i have faith.. hee... and thanks alot.. yay~!!! love is all around~~

hope im not a burden.
i dont want to be. :)

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Wednesday, August 26, 2009

my tian ah...

my brain is rebelling...
nothing wants to go in and being digest..
what should i do..?? i shouldnt even get off my seat just now right??
urrghhhh... having a hard time convincing myself.. ROAR~!!!!

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Tuesday, August 25, 2009

oh my.. im really drained..

weeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~
had last second paper today..
valuation was O.O hahahahahahhasss....
there were four questions which contains 25 marks each..
and i only did 2.5 of them... provided question one's answer is correct...
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~ dont really wanna think of it already..
dammit la!!! didnt do the one studied so long yesterday.. roar~~!!!! was kind of disappointed with myself.. awwww... why its always the matter here.. dots.. well well.. i'll just praaaaaaaaaay hard to get a C at least.. oh man.. its terrifying.. HA...

the next paper is on this coming thrusday.. REL!!! dammit.. HAHAHAS...
law is even more to memories.. @@ gonna start later perhaps.. my head is still so heavy and my eyes seems to be straining.. the feeling of them denting inwards.. WAHAHAHAHAHAHA.. am extremly tired, but dont know why, too tired will high.. LOL...

slept two hours last night, another two hours recently.. but doesnt feel good..
i cant sleep.. and the incident of the army of ants on my table really freaked me out.. i really reaaaaaally hate insects.. damn!!! why are they revolving around me?! under my papers which i got to study still!!! ROAR~!!!!! so many small ants dragging an ultra big giant ant which is really very huge la!!! lucky hao xin was here.. TT.TT i could still remember the incident so clearly.. curious why are there so many small ants crawling here and there... take my notes up and say the black patch of movable stuff.. O_____O sighn.. my life revolving around the insects world...

was disappointed with my YAMI yoghurt today...
i want another giant serving of YAMI yogurt to turn my day around :(

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woah~~~
finally read through most stuff for valuation exam later..
its really @@!!! really.. omg.. the things are so confusing..
everyone around was like 'ehhhh..???' whats this and that..
most of us 'went down' one by one.. lol... went to bed i mean..
hahahha... its really very tiring.. building tech is already an omg one..
and now its valuation.. saw the pass year paper and was really G.G going G.O..
after finish revising, look back again.. at least its not so alien to me now...
really hope we can manage later~~ all the best!!!!

@@

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Sunday, August 23, 2009

abandon.

well, had a very rough night.
its making me crazy.. i think soon, i'll be eating myself or cutting all into pieces before going to IMH.. dots... the first nightmare was horrible.. was terribly shocked.. and the second one was nice.. but unrealistic..

well well..
life goes on before i choose not to..
i got to stand up and learn how to walk again..

stop adapting and change.

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i can and i will and i must manage this...

my instinct gave me a very strong feeling...

if i can get through this, i'll be a stronger person..

go for it.. no matter what.. i'll survive...

我是一只打不死的蟑螂

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Saturday, August 22, 2009

disappointment.

it seems like, im invinsible..
really.. how to get rid of the kanna ps-ed feeling..
damn... its hard. i dont know.. just very very disappointing.

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WHY IS THERE A BLACK

COCKROACH-LIKE BUG

DROPPED DIRECTLY ON MY PAPER?!

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hmmm..
to think of it...
it isnt a big matter if we co operate and communicate appropriately..
why didnt i having that big fuse and made myself so uncontrollably up sad?
well... be more mature ting... im in poly already, though i misses secondary school :x
well well.. stop being stunborn and do what i should and i shall :)
dear... wo lai ler~!!!!

lets study hard :D
you train hard and i play hard after that XD

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why do i feel so empty...

empty till wanna vomit..

why do i always get the extreme instead :'(

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Friday, August 21, 2009

今天的心情好差

一大清早的，本来是想早一点起身读书的，但怎么起都起不来，就这样浪费了早晨美好的时间。到了中午才客服了一切，拉起了懒散的自己读了一点。中午时，还下起了倾盆大雨呢。真讨厌。

中午四点，约了俊國一起到大巴窑的麦当劳啃书。幸好有人陪伴，好过多一点。过了不久，大约七点钟，濠鑫也来了。大家就一起在那四方桌埋头苦读。

well..
i think its much easier to translate it back to english. phew... guess not much people can really tahan that bah.. hahahas.. well well.. hmmm.. i dont know.. (i realised i always mentioned ' i dont know' before i write those emo stuff) dots.. well, really.. hahaha.. i got some emo stuff hidden inside.. and i cant find a suitable soul to transport it out.. thats why my blog is always so emo hurh?! hahas..

well.. i hate reality.. however, most of the time im forcing myself to face it, because i have been running away from it.. i dont know should i release the pain.. but i dont think its right to be release since its the fact thats its unfortunate.. well.. its stucked inside.. and it is making me very terrible.. the simpliest form is that, what i ever look forward in all my 'holidays' has gone, because the fact that busy and financial issue had all corked up.. i dont know how to see it.. normally i'll plan it all in my mind and slowly they will proceed.. but now.. i can really imagine myself, holding dad's huge camera and go to the zoo alone with all the belongings and stuff.. taking pictures of the animals and looking at all families and couples walking pass me.. wow.. thats so fascinating isnt it.. i dont know.. its just a different person... all about shooting.. money for his bow.. so.. what about me..??? am i being forgotten in your plan...??? the feelings sucks... im trying hard not to be too depending on you.. hoping to lessen your load.. but this.. im just hindering him all along.. how can i not to be so useless.. when can i be independent.. its a want and not a need right..?? if yes, even how bad it is i'll still live right..?? it sucks to the core.. i hate to be happy.. in this kind of time, if i can still smile, im a truely masked.. in fact, its bleeding profusely..

how i hope its just a dream.
探望你会拍着我的头，告诉我没事的没事的。。。

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空虚

到底怎么了。。。

好想有你的陪伴。。。

但忙碌的你，我又怎么说出口。。。

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sometimes communication helps alot sometimes..

sigh.. i think its so difficult to go through this..
so we seems to be like this in your point of view?
it seems like im having all the fault.. hindering his future..
thats why i undertstand and let him go.. i didnt stop him do i..??
even if how unbearable.. trying hard to switch my mind of concepts..
accept and forget and did all i could.. just hope for a peace...
if i really can speak well... there isnt a need for blog do i..?
nothing is important here because it is never the root of heart..
let it be.. just be happy...

if i can really just be myself..

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Wednesday, August 19, 2009

omg.. finally done with all tutorials..
gonna meet gal to submit at 11am later on..
its a blink and its going 4AM!!! omg..
im quite scared of lying down.. lol...
its really hurting alot.. had 2 plaster pasted on my back but it doesnt really help much..
i think i need the whole back to be pasted... hahaha.. oh man... no baobao.. tmr will be having an even harder day and time with all aches.. wahhhh... omg.. G.G. going G.O. ... sigh...

good morning.

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having terrible back aches..

even if i wanna put any medication, everyone has slept..
oh my tian... its really very uncomfortable.. but partcially started from this morning.. my baobao was washed and i really couldnt get to sleep.. nothing thats as comfortable.. i didnt even sleep the whole night.. i could still remember my every turns.. haizzz... its terrible.. and cant imagine im having it today again.. F-ED.. zzzzzz.. waolao eh... i think my bones are really breaking apart.. those aches.. wakao!!! zzzzz... dammiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit... damn uncomfortable.. soo sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo uncomfortable.. :'(((( should u purchase one at the 7eleven...??? oh my tian.. will it be very expensive??? urghhhhhh.... dying dying... i need a baobao... TT.TT should i just sleep on my study table or sofa..?? omg... boohoohoo... painful... :((((((((((((((((((((((

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Tuesday, August 18, 2009

had an extremly bad sleep yesterday...

cant even have a nice second of sleep... my 'baobao' , huggy, was in the washing machine after missy slept on it... without any huggy, its so terrible.. haizz... aching everywhere... :((( should i buy one later..??

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weeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~

going to study with ah rong and zhen.. fan-tastic~!!!

wahahahahah.. shall not spoil my mood for others...

thanks bud too!!! hee..

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Monday, August 17, 2009

misses those good old days where we studied together... :(

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Saturday, August 15, 2009

screwed up.

i think i've just made the same mistake by not getting a clear vision before starting my arguements.. just as i saw him threatening missy as she barked from the welcoming, i shouted across the living room.. and the war begun.. it has started long ago when sis and his sparked..

i know whats wrong with sis's unreasonable attitude because i know the story behind it... but that stunborn dumb ass just think its all correct.. though both have our mistakes and misunderstandings.. but even if we have stepped a step back, she is still so bitchy.. i just cant stand her arrogant and bitchy attitude.. there are many inside stories thats shouldnt be mentioned.. but i, myself, have also joined the war.. and i have made it worst.. i know mum isnt feeling good at all... but i really cant stand it.. just because im the youngest and i cant have my stand? just because he is the only guy then everything is right? what a screwed way of saying it..

in this 19 years of living.. just because im the youngest so i shouldnt have my stand? my ownership? its unfair that one has and one doesnt.. and that dumb ass guy just threw the stuff away just like this.. when he has it, its an extra.. when he doesnt have it, he begged for it.. didnt you watch the news? didnt you know some who wanted their family back after the natural disaster occurred? thought he had be enlighten, but the fact is totally untrue.. urghhh... damb ass.. i have no say as im the dumb ass no. 2...

im a disappointing one...
instead of stopping...

worsten everything.
fucked.

i've understood how sis felt...

everything flicked out on the year without my birthday wish..

~ { 9:45 PM }
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Friday, August 14, 2009

omg!!! :D

this is the first time i heard people dreamt of me!!
hahahaha... zhen, when u free tell me kies!!! must rmb wor~~~
hahahhaha... hee...

pm. happy for you, you guys look great!!!

roar~~~!!!!!!
having last retail test tmr..
i dont wana go for the talk~!!!!
had loads of things to do.. but it has started with me..
so even if others wanna go, i got to join too.. awwwwwwww...
im a super blur sotong la.. seriously, i cant remember the stuff that i suppose to..
misplaced stuff and i got to ask around to catch back some memories... haiyaiyai..
im feeling quite nervous for later's test already.. hahaha.. omg.. the worst module so far...
LOL.. arhhhhhhhhhhhh... good luck to all.. exam in another one week's time..
woooooot!!!! 1 pvl tutorial and 2 rel tutorial... RAWR~~~~

i miss watching UP..
anyone can help me to install real player?? O.O??

~ { 12:19 AM }
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Thursday, August 13, 2009

i really wanna sleep :((((

ppt done.. now waiting for the pictures..

*yawn*

~ { 2:57 AM }
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Tuesday, August 11, 2009

the first reaction i had was to contact u, but you are busying.. im very vex too.. but i've decided to listen to what kind of scope is the job in... was wondering if you wanna join in too.. but after hearing you, i guess i know your answer.. dont wanna make another difficult situation for you so decided not to say anything.. well.. hope you are having fun... i shall go with my friends then..

the tastiest food is to be shared or it wont be so tasty afterall..

~ { 7:05 PM }
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Monday, August 10, 2009

我是傻瓜!!!! 是大笨蛋!!!

~ { 9:15 PM }
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