Friday, December 4, 2009

ATTACK ATTACK!!!

the cockroaches are attacking my house!!!!!!

woahhh.. i feel like a giddy monster that has two swollen eyes... hahaha.. these days slept very very late.. having so much work that we hardly get enough rest.. everyone seems so stress and easily agitated... sigh.. everything went out fine, so i guess thats the fortunate one?

hmmm.. very tired.. shall blog next time bah..

christmas is coming..

but it seems a bad year this year.. christmas will be a painful one.. no money, no time.. urgh.. 5 projects to be completed before january.. and without my watch, i seems so insecure.. its seems like i'll be late for everything, every second.. sigh..

hoping for a turn.

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woooooah...

cant stand last min work..

its really so LAST MINUTE!!

hahas.. lecturer was surprised that we came out with those stuff less than an hour.. teeheehee.. was kind of shiok when she said that because... kekeke.. i was the one to prepare the slides and others provide information.. but the procedure wasnt that nice though.. almost everyone was so gan jiong and just splash the things out just like that.. havent even finish the previous one and they are half way on the next one.. dont say im slow ok.. :x kekeke.. well well, its doesnt matter.. it feels nice though.. things are proceeding and yep, they were impressed. :D

hmmmmm..

alot things going on.. im very confused too..

somehow very sad about something too..haiss..

so many things to do, so its not the time to think of them bah..

holidays..

yes.. that means more assignments..

i have tonnes of them again and again!!!

its always replenished.. HAHAHAHA..

sigh..

走一步，算一步。。。

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omg..

finally finished the slides..

hurray~~~~ hahaha.. felt like tmr is a holiday..

dots.. so bullshit la.. hahahas.. i want movies TT.TT

lol.. well.. shall blog tmr bah~~~~

tata..

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Wednesday, December 2, 2009

cant simply concentrate on my work..

i left tonnes of them.. really.. and there is pym's presentation later.. and glad i drank coffee earlier on.. sigh.. i wish i could talk to someone who willing to learn about me.. but nahh.. nothing good to learn about.. sigh.. im a damn evil person who always irritate those lovable ones and then nag alot and make them crazy.. hahaha.. its always like this.. sigh..

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Tuesday, December 1, 2009

怎么办。。。

if everything comes real, 该怎么办...

im very confused inside.. with loads of crazy thoughts.. somehow, its distracting.. very distracting when i need time for work instead of drifting away and think of other matters.. its so contradicting with my song.. im changing, yes, very much.. so what should i do.. i feel like being sandwich-ed in between.. if my choice may help someone, im willing to try.. but i know deeply.. i'll definitely hurt someone.. hurt him deeply hard.. can i just forward the days and see for the result then come back to decide? its so painful just by thinking it.. i had never never thought about that seriously.. and now, im serious... i cant help if im always staying beside right... to help his present and future, will this little scarify be a successful one? will he blame me after everything? our life will definitely changes.. i dont know.. i cant do this alone.. its unfair.. but life is unfair..

reflections..

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at least, sis is around at this point of time..

well, it is a hard one...

only in this morning we got the reminder of doing the UPE blog in mel after the BCA gallery visit.. roar.. and i had to bring this freaking heavy thing to school.. well, it benefit me though.. had my lunch occupied with works and fb-ing.. dots.. not much appetite for lunch though.. ate a muffin from sis this morning, and i found an ant inside.. haizz.. feel like puking, but its sis hard earn money whom bought the muffin, so in the end i ate it.. :/ dont really wanna think of the aftermath la.. hahaha.. i will be fine.. :)

dont really have any interesting things to blog recently, will be busy with my common test which is starting next week.. havent end started on any modules yet.. im starting to dig my own grave though.. hahas.. well.. gastric is giving me problems lately.. sigh.. after today's REM tutorial which has something to do with lasik, i really hope i will be able to do it one day despite those risks.. sigh.. the younger you do the better!! hahahas.. Mrs Sally is quite a cute person.. oh oh!!! Ms Carol got pregnant!!! omg!!! hahaha.. so happy for her.. hee.. she is very cute and friendly too!! :D

hmmm..

was kind of.. isolated myself today? i dont know whats wrong with me.. but i dont feel like mixing around.. be alone by myself better.. i wont make anyone angry nor they feel irritated or annoyed by my nags.. haha.. well well.. too bad bah.. im such a nag.. sigh.. dont care so much wont nag so much.. im trying not to care for any other things.. but i found its redundant.. its still a failure.. sigh.. well well.. ok.. was kind of.. erm.. how to say.. i just cant talk to her properly.. keep getting on my nerve.. i think we both knows.. so i avoided to work with her.. its like avoiding some disputes.. we were quite strong headed at times.. so that may be the reason behind bah..

well.. im just a normal human being, you cant expect me to talk two things out at the same time.. i only have a mouth and brain.. sigh.. hope you will understand..

well, got home today and accompanied sis for some errands.. i was suppose to go to j8 to take my GV membership card, but in the end, i accompanied sis to china town and bugis.. had great talks with her though.. its a heart to heart talk.. well, though she is unwell, she offered me her ride.. haha.. well, hee.. im very protective de hor!! hahaha.. welll, of course i need to accompany her.. she my sis thats the very big reason.. so yup... enjoyed the journey and also bought a like 'hat' clip.. ^^ hee.. it costs three bucks though.. TT.TT hahaha.. well, i'll live with it.. money is to be spent.. so once in awhile still can la.. hahahah.. :/ hee... ohh ohh.. on our journey we suddenly talked about alcohol.. hmmm.. she told me some recent news of being drunk.. there was a couple that was just married.. and immediately after the marriage, either one drop down the hotel's balcony and was killed by that.. he got too drunk.. and you see, its JUST MARRIED leh.. haizz.. another very sad case was, there is this lady.. dont know why she got herself so drunk.. she got off the cab and vomited around the rubbish trout (i dont know what it calls, the collection area of our rubbish after we throw in down from our flats..) and a bagala saw and dragged her into the trout and locked it.. guess what, he raped her inside it.. the residents around there saw and intend to save her, but too late.. the trout was locked.. can you imagine it? its so dirty and also uncomfortable being drunk and what that animal did? zzzz.. really very disgusted and upsad after hearing it.. so people.. becareful if u wanna drink, especially ladies!!! haizz...

well well..

it makes me nauseous whenever i think of it..

sigh...

its just day one.

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Sunday, November 29, 2009

doesnt feel like sleeping..

i cant sleep nor stop thinking..

whats that messed feeling..

its like so numb...

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bad...

i really need to know what kind of person i am to others..

to be a better person, i should know truth about myself..

loads of reflection to do..

need to be leave alone..

其实，我不是一个好孩子或朋友或女朋友。。。

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the care ones, the hack care ones, the lovable ones, the unlovable ones, the stingy ones, the generous ones, the harmonious ones, the hot tempered ones....

no family, no friends to begin with..

ctrl,a, delete

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OMG...

im so in love with Twilight!!!

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Wednesday, November 25, 2009

您是否能借我您的肩膀靠一靠。。。

快爆炸了。。。

好怕自己控制不了情绪，但一切都不重要了。

我该怎么办？本来是想发松一下心情，与我爱的人出外散散步，但为何一切会让我更难呼吸呢? 好想对您诉苦，但怎么才能让您了解呢？不能体谅我的心情的你，我怎么能对您诉苦呢？诉苦后，您会了解吗？好想脱掉自己那丑陋的面具，做自己。累了，能够不用那么坚强。我该怎么办？快死了，心真的快死了。为什么与我想象的您那么的不一样？好辛苦。我找不到你，摸透不了无底的迷题。该怎么做才能回到过去？

您在乎吗？

期待您的关心与爱

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Tuesday, November 24, 2009

why cant humans talk nicely to one another..

why humans suspects so much...

why cant humans be more kind..

why cant days be lighter...

why cant i feel better...

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sharks sharks sharks..

im NOT studying... ROAR!!!

how how how.. :((((((

wen ting dont want to have that 6 chapters test tmr..

she is gonna be dead..

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Monday, November 23, 2009

omg..

im getting slower and slower..

i just cant remember things..

sorry if i asked so many times..

~ { 10:51 PM }
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%$&^%#$@! #$@%#$%

i think i may just burst the next moment and just died like that...

died of heat stroke, vex, stress, exhaustions...

craps.

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Sunday, November 22, 2009

people are going insane..

the will to live.

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inner commotions never seems to end...

tas ke teh...

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Saturday, November 21, 2009

Enjoyed today very very much..

AGM (y)

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Friday, November 20, 2009

Poof..

its sure another tiring week..

it feels so great to endure till then.. HA.. but sharks, we are stepping closer to the projects' submission dates.. having six chapters test next week, we havent even had the chance to flip through our notes.. awwww.. time is sure running fast.. one more week to 4 projects submission.. not a thing is fully done yet.. why do they give so many things and expect us to finish them all? its really does a great work in time management.. finished a few e-learning these few weeks, every week tutorials and extra practices, quizzes and class tests.. sigh.. we did survived.. till then.. LOL..

i think i need temper management class? its like so many things bombing at once and there fluctuates my temper.. haiyaiyai... my back is acting up so regularly these days... haizz.. giving so much discomfort.. im tired.. but cant get a good sleep... had a nightmare yesterday? does it consider as a nightmare? i dream of our training camp.. si lie planned the night activities.. its not really plan la.. but you know.. in my dream he had these ulu ulu fake haunted buildings with specialised roller coaster trail in it.. then everyone was separated to different station with different rides.. then you know, its that kind of rides that bring you around then something scary will pop out.. but i didnt manage to get on my ride la.. because before that, my alarm rang.. so im considered lucky? :/

well.. had my first day without spending.. its like hell.. really.. hunger doesn't leave.. i feel so restless the whole day la.. i brought some bread and fruits though.. but i think it doesnt help much.. hahah.. galvin treated me a can of drink during lunch.. and its like god sending me food.. hahaha.. its really buay tahan.. that feeling of hunger.. haizzz.. ohh ohh.. then after school, really feel like dying.. hahaha.. choo treated me 2 piece chicken chop from tpy pasamalam.. its so so yummy~~~ hahhaha.. it really taste great.. can go and try.. its just outside courts.. teeheehee.. but you see, not eveyday im luck.. so how to spend tomorrow..? sian.. is saving really that difficult? :(

prickly eye..

i need my sleeping pill.

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Thursday, November 19, 2009

why am i so pron to injuries?

just realised my ankle felt weird.. its just like the feeling i had last week... did i even strain it in the first place? had back aches along la.. so nothing special.. but since this morning, my right eye has been feeling some prick.. its on my eyeball!!! ensured by asking andrea and jo to help me help if there is anything severe times, but nothing was found.. it seems like a cut right in the middle.. the question is, when did i even scratch it? oh my.. haizz.. actually there are more la.. but those were self made blue blacks, does it counts? dots.. walked into my room and wanted to get hold of the door knot.. in the end, i hit my back of my palm twice against it.. and i get hold of nothing in the end.. its so toot la.. zzz... whats the matter with me these days.. haizz...

the never ending..

thanks for listening.

felt alittle better..

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Wednesday, November 18, 2009

im so so confused...

one side no reaction, the other side is full of negative thoughts..

one side dont even cared to explain or ask, the others side keep protecting me..

both of them finally stirred me up..

whats going on...

i cant let it go.. its just make me so vex that cant even concentrate on work anymore.. and the most frustrating one is him... why dont even care to say anything nor ask anything? it really hurts people by doing that.. what he wants, whats on his mind.. what exactly is he thinking and what kind of person he really is.. what things wont change for the better.. its freaking pissed me off..

WHAT DO YOU WANT?!

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Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Annoying..

so pissed off trying to get my things done as much as i could, but must they talk so loudly? zzzz.. did controlled my temper, but was leaking here and there.. why is there so much work and i'm just like chasing things done when i cant even get near to it.. zzzz.. my back is aching again.. there goes to the same principle with golden's leg.. his pain seems to be coming back again.. mum says the medication i bought earlier seems quite good.. and now, she call me to purchase it again.. i don't mind that, but im so busy with my work and cant she just feed him a tablet? even despite my words, she went straight in to her room.. zzzzz.. I've been sitting at the same spot after i woke up from my meditation, cant she help a little bit? and yes, to buy is the easiest word to say, but i don't work in the bank nor print any notes.. where do i get the money? after all those huge debts from archery equipments, where the hell can i find another 50 bucks? i'm trying to save as much as i can, but as least help a little? its so much things up in my brain.. what to do.. what can i do to at least lessen them a little.. just a little will do.. a little..

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无助的想大声叫或哭出来。。。

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its gonna to erupt..

so fucking pissed..

~ { 10:18 PM }
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its swirling up again..

confused..

blinded.

~ { 6:49 PM }
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Sharks..

had my jab this morning..

and i tell you, its freaking painful.. dots..

doc says i shouldnt feel pain with my cramps because i will be carried away by the more painful one.. and the truth is, THEY BOTH ARE SO PAINFUL!!! :(

now, my arm muscles are so useless.. it seems like swollen.. :/

then after taking those 2 pills of muscles relaxation pills, i became so drowsy la!!! it feels like having drunk.. anytime will unconscious that kind.. hahaa.. well, i had a good rest earlier on~ mum doesnt allow me to go shooting.. :( she gave me that face.. haiyaiyai..

kaori sensei just called.. she says i'll got to meet her tmr for the reading test.. haiyaiyai.. i cant read la.. sob.. well well... no other ways to turn back now.. shall do my best tmr bah.. i shall start my work ler bah..

thanks for coming over this morning :)

hope you understand whats going on and whats your decision..

please know what you are doing and what you gonna do..

craving for chilled mr bean. ;)

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Monday, November 16, 2009

(a) Drawing for environmental (super childish i know.. TT.TT) :x

(b) Managed to take a few shots of VIVA showroom before the guard stop us :x

(c) Last Friday after UPE site visit, ken,andrea,yuxian and i went to a prata shop :]

(d) Random shots in lecture theatre :p

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BrRrrRrrrrr...

its so coldddd....

its tsuyu = means japan's rainy season.. but theirs were in june to beginning of july, but ours are are right at the end of the year.. boohoohoo.. i hate rainy seasons.. make people emo... :/

well well...

today seems to be moving fast!!

after 2 hours of lectures, we went to VIVA's showroom which is beside United Square.. didnt go before.. but VIVA is awesome!!! its a condo.. its really O M G la!!! hahaha.. its really great.. and the costs are great too!! the cheapest unit which is a two room unit cost around 1.8m... the highest cost is the sky something.. lol.. i forgot its name and its 8m!!! omg.. damn nice la!! the 8m's bathtub costs $20,000!!! OMG.. its very nice.. hahahha.. so luxurious.. love it alot.. haha.. its a guy in knight frank who brought us around and explained to us some tactics of handling buyers.. woooot.. its derick.. hahaha.. quite a nice guy (Y)

went back to school and had our lunch.. 30 mins to enjoy before rushing off to environmental tutorial.. our task today is to draw something like a brochure or poster.. something like that.. to increase the awareness of public.. yea.. something like that.. haha.. we can choose the vectors to draw.. well, im so unprofessional.. hahah.. im like drawing cartoon.. LOL.. throw mr leong's face.. hahaha.. :x

then had 2 hours of project management lecture.. i tell you.. if there is someone that i'll got to call that woman a *****, she will be the one!! zzzzz.. really pissed all of us.. not happy then call us to do assignment.. then in 4 mins must be handed up.. zzzz.. one slide can talk for 30 mins.. always call the guys mr. what and keep blah blah blah.. zzzz.. dots.. one thing good about her is that she release us earlier today... LOL!!! okok.. haha..

不知所措。

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Sunday, November 15, 2009

OH YA!!!

while walking around with mum earlier on, i spotted this..

DAMN NICE RIGHT?!

omg... i love it.. but.. u know how much it cost?! $50 BUCKS!!

its $49.90.. sobs.. i realy like it.. haizz.. well well... no fate luh.. ):

if one day i can save it up, i'll buy it.. HAHAHA.. its brand is PATCH..

awwwww.. so ex.. dots.. its in BHG though.. well.. disappointing..

ohh ohh.. there is a I'HEART' NP shirt coming out from some IS group..

per shirt is $12 i think.. lol.. i like it too leh.. hahahah.. omg.. gg la.. hahahhaa..
Check it out!! hahah.. http://snake-eaters.blogspot.com/

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I'M IN THE BAYGONE AREA!!!! @@

im sitting in my room after dad sprayed the baygone with..

i was complaining about the bites this morning, those red little dots appearing.. its like so many la!!! the itch will continues like three days?! and i scratch till bleed already and its still as itchy la!! for DAYS!! roar!!!!

am i getting old or what.. my eyes are getting blurred..

well well...

had a very very pleasant sunday.. a sunday that i used to dream to be.. having breakfast with dad,emi and sis for prata while mum was working.. jab was postponed to tuesday morning as mum disagree to be consult by the lady doctor.. lol.. heard she was very unprofessional.. emi went for her last check up that was done by her.. heard from mum that she jab with the needle poking and pulling and poking.. blah blah blah.. emi was in pain then.. dots.. and of course i agreed... lol.. alright.. then went to the market with mum.. it has been half a year since i did that? hahas... then did some of my assignments with my laptop on.. :x hahas.. was thinking to meet zhen out for a walk.. but unfortunately sis got her off.. HAHAHA!!! her student was sick, thus she did not go for tuition.. tsk tsk.. hahaha.. well, kidding.. its not that bad la.. i had a great time today... mum, sis and i went for MOVIE together!! teeheehee.. its the first time watching with both of them.. i watched movie with mum and bro before when i was still very very young.. a cartoon.. hahahah.. and mum fell asleep that time.. LOL.. well., its common la.. its in english.. well well :) we watched 2012.. woahhh.. i tell you, its not that bad.. but i controlled my tears from dripping.. HA.. those scene wasn't bad.. just that, they made it so real that.. you know.. has that impact.. i give it a three and a half star!! heehee.. had even hilarious scene before the movie started..

we went to ntuc before the movie start.. thinking if to buy some tibbits in.. then mum disappeared for awhile and came back with a 'da bao'.. LOL.. sis and i was stunned.. then sis seems pissed off.. cuz you know, cinema marh.. but mum dont know what.. so yea.. i felt the ache of how mum will feel.. roar.. stupid sis.. haizz.. well, eventually it came out well.. we were not caught.. hahahahhaah.. ^^V nice one..

thats my sunday~

teeheehee..

GREAT.

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Saturday, November 14, 2009

sigh.. feeling very vex..

printed some of my lecture notes with double sides by flipping here and there.. its so boring.. well... weekend doesnt seems to be like a weekend.. feeling so troubled... those stuff keep bothering me.. why this why that, so why now.. dots.. so many little little things..

right now, i hope to push my work aside and meet up with some friends for a buffet meal.. dots.. and of course, where im standing now does not comply to the above result.. haizz.. anyone?? anyone feeling rich? lol.. dots..

im feeling so so troubled.. i need someone that doesnt know much about me.. urgh!!! its erupting soon.. awwwww...

was bored so i hop by some of the bloggers' links i have.. i didnt know.. i would never know the fact till i see those stuff at your blog.. so im not considered a friend to you already? just because im not in the band anymore? just because i joined archery instead? just because.. so many reasons? im utterly speechless.. sigh.. so so disappointed.. thats called a friend.. wow.. im throughly impressed..

hoping for a very nice prata breakfast before going to the doc..

haizzz... what the fucking hell is this.. so fucking pissed..

what the hell..

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can i stop being so strong headed..??

its tearing me apart..

boohoohoo...

stop the earth from rotating.

~ { 8:06 PM }
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alot of craps happening around and inside me..

well.. these days feel chaos.. i cant be myself...

its not that easy.. those mixture..

sigh.. no wonder they dont understand..

its really very tedious...

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mum complained and dad helped her..

together, i was shot right through...

studies more important than shooting..

tmr.. i cant go to shoot anymore..

jabbing.. :\

~ { 7:57 PM }
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OMG~~~

i like tiff's blogshop that design 7 Lascoste bag!!

navy blue de damn nice!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it looks so nice!!!! but no money now.. TT.TT

if u are curious, have a look!!! things are awesome!!!

http://www.eugany.blogspot.com/

am i helping to advertise?O.O

well well... its sooo nice~~~

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Friday, November 13, 2009

very sad to know the fact, i'm already no longer together with them.. for that instant, i saw the photo, those very memorable memories brings me pain.. why.. why did he appear so late.. why must i have chosen another interest before they met up again.. why cant we play together again.. i really miss those periods... nine years just being washed away...

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A very cold day...

wooooah... today's weather is super cold...

it keeps on raining these few days.. in and out of the air-conditioned room.. awwwww... it will be weird if i don't feel sick at all la.. dots.. well well, i AM still very busy with my work.. sigh.. no time to blog.. so many task and stuff.. wooooah.. finally its Friday, but the most weirdest thing was, i don't even know why every just passed so fast.. it seems like I've learnt nothing still.. haven't even sit down and read my notes yet.. roar... and archery too... its a privilege to have coach.. i really really hope i can do better in the next competition.. at least, don't disappoint myself again..

money wise, i'm really very constraint... cant spend, cant eat.. sigh.. this kind of life repeating itself again... i hate it.. but in order to buy those stuff, i must must tell myself... don't be tempted... sigh.. sad... well well, havent gone running yet.. raining everyday.. im so sick of it.. haizz..

work work!!!

i'm still left with quite a number of assignment.. well, at least most problems have dissolved on my side... hope something bad don't happen.. right eye lid keeps itching.. sigh.. well well, doesnt matter.. i'm now left with my assignment, hope it will diminish soon...

contented.

bro looks so cool.. shuai!!

i love his hair..

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Tuesday, November 10, 2009

im so tired..

much work to be done..

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Saturday, November 7, 2009

why cant you just reassure me and explain..

why cant i get your heart.. why isn't there any sincerity.. why i feel so messed up again.. flicker minded.. ended up with disappointment again.. again and again.. it added up.. is it a yes or no? i don't wanna get into that state.. but... it bring us nowhere.. things changes and people never learn nor get it.. what a day.. should it be happy or...

i miss the days with you.

meet up shall we? leave all those aside..

release me..

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Friday, November 6, 2009

gone case.. its really aching.. still aching.. YES, MY BACK!!! TT.TT

hais.. i wonder do you really know.. whatever happens, humans cant be ditch aside like this.. from a point of view it may be serious, from another will be easier.. does anyone thought for others before? i dont know.. im kind of down.. emo... whatever.. did you care..? sigh.. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.. dont like it slap me.. wake me up from these nightmares..

if its not tmr,

i'll go to the doctor

P.I.S.S.E.D

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my back hurts..

please break it apart.. URHHHHH!!!!!%#^$#&#$$

its so irritating.. its so uncomfortable.. cant sit straight nor stand.. sigh... its... annoying... damn!!! painful... painful... painful... pain....

was very delighted awhile ago before the ache started.. we finally finished two of our presentations.. that means, TWO DOWN!!! MUHAHAHaHAHAHA.. many more to go, but nevermind~ looking on the bright side of life... i think i was over nervous just now.. HA!!! cant speak well in the UPE presentation, fortunately, it got better in the HSM ones.. phew~.. but what makes me feel so light and happy was, WE GOT THE HIGHEST IN HSM!!!! hahahaha... alvin peeked at the list and saw our group had the highest.. weeeeeeeeeee~~~~ not regretting of scarifying my sleeps.. YAY~~~~ heee...

other than YAY 1, i got YAY 2!!! its Galvin's birthday today~!!!!! hee.. ponning HSM lecture to celebrate with him later.. :x its my first time pon hor.. im still very guai... LOL... heehee... galvin treated all of us ice coffee too!!! yippeeee~~~ heehee.. well.. was kind of down these days, but today will be my happiest day bah!!! heeheehee.. we will be going yum cha~!!! heeheehee.. my first yum cha record in my life.. im so qi dai!!!! :)

To you: i dont know.. but seems tedious to communicate with you.. you wont understand any bit unless i tell you.. but we dont even have the time to talk.. feel so far apart.. am i doing the right thing..? though its the wrong method... for your archery wise, it will help u when u train more bah.. but as in the stand of your girl, its a total insecure.. i dont know if i really know you.. what u like.. i had no idea about them.. everyday's anticipation became small little scars.. im afraid how long can i endure.. the strength that pull me through all these.. though u had no idea what im facing these days, its really quite bad.. im super duper unlucky.. many things came upon me.. well, keep that aside.. i dont know.. what should i say that you will understand.. maybe to you, you may think this relationship is a burden.. you have no time to waste on.. but well, i need commitment.. even if you had a big project or competition what so ever, i hope for little little moves that brings up the initiatives.. i know u have no time for those.. well well.. forget it.. all the best for you...

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thanks peeps who are worrying and caring~~~

love you peeps!!! :)

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oh man...

i hurt my back again...

its acting up again i should say..

well.. tired.. but mentally its awake...

just finished UPE interview and slide plus hospitality's presentation slides too.. both presenting tmr.. awwww~~~ felt kinda weird though.. dots.. sigh... these few weeks many many things happened to me.. most were quite bad.. so no use keep thinking of them.. while, tried to over come one by come and i reached where im standing now.. hope polite to be over soon and good.. well, im quite worried.. but i dont know.. the feeling inside, nobody can describe it.. i cant too.. its just so mixed up.. i got over that matter already, going in or not isnt what i could choose.. since its this way i shall accept.. its all up to the commitment.. so yep.. if u are worrying about that matter, i can reassure you, im kind of enlighten now.. after so many stuff happening non stop, i kind of take and go feeling already.. well.. one more day to weekends... stand stronger..

anyhow..

its late..

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Thursday, November 5, 2009

zzz...

cant even tell you whats my nightmare..

cant you just stay awake for another 2 minutes?!

the only time we can talk...

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Wednesday, November 4, 2009

i shared my dream with mummy, and she told me if any dreams thats about teeth dropping is unlucky.. someone will get it.. its a family thing.. and i'm afraid of that too.. has been extremely unlucky since school started.. and bro went army and many many other stuff.. sigh.. :( i dont know.. having this mixed feeling.. chaos.. and... emo...

afraid.

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ehhhh..

why the answer wasn't not me...???

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Tuesday, November 3, 2009

wooooot..

bathed and feel much more refresh now..

im still very tired to do that property tutorial for tomorrow, but thats my fate~.. blahhh... just found out what happened to my toe that hurts so much after this morning.. =.= i kicked the stairs while rushing to school today.. that bridge near school.. that alot of aggregates that one.. =.= pain like #$^#%@$^%.. now i finally understand why.. dots.. i had never leave my toe nails long before, before i can get it long, i'll got to bear the pain.. when i was a kiddy till im old enough to cut it myself, mum always helps me to cut them.. the cons were, she often cut too deep in.. and here i am.. haha.. well well.. i kicked the rough aggregates and rush to class.. didnt even know it bleeds.. zzzz.. no wonder so painful la.. dots.. well, its good hurh.. at least i know im alive.. i feel alive.. dots..

im damn unlucky this semester ok!! zzzzz.. its just 2 weeks and here i am, with the whole loads of problem here and there.. well.. some stuff are beyond my control.. i can do nothing about.. but have a thought, almost everything is beyond my control.. well.. should i spill them out? hais.. forget it.. it will be better just keep inside myself.. little little things.. it cant be compared to yours.. yea, polite may be a stress event till you get it.. its not the reason to let yourself be grumpy.. whatever they are.. think about what im going through too.. afterall, life carries on and on..

tough to be going through all these..

but someone told me before, 'these' strengthen me and develop a stronger person..

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its bursting and breaking...

the worst semester ever..

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Monday, November 2, 2009

tomorrow's jap test..

im dead..

TT.TT

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i miss you.

boarded 93 to macritchie and transfered 74 to school...

on my way to mac, i saw this yellow t-shirt guy.. his back view really does look like javier!!!! i really thought thats him!!! but after a thought, jav shouldnt be anywhere near that spot at the time.. so i waited to peek at his face.. :x and true enough, its other people.. TT.TT roar!!!! was so happy till i saw his face.. i felt a bucket of water fell onto me

hmmmmmm...

this whole day, it is really bothering me.. i just cant swing it away.. its not him nor xiao hua.. its.. jack.. is it real or its just merely my instinct.. i really was being bothered badly.. i just cant stand it.. i hate things to be this way, but its merely a misunderstanding isnt it..? its a two hand clap thing.. even if i think its not his fault, things wouldnt change till he get it too.. and btw, im not guilty of it.. i did all i could and i finish my task.. who should be guilty of leaving all his responsibility to someone else and also doing the bad mouthing? hey guys, please la.. be more clever.. just by listening to one side of the story doesnt help.. i hate having some stuff over there that just bothers me.. its a long story since a year ago.. but im true to myself.. im definitely not guilty.. but maybe just alittle uneasy on the reply of facebook.. shouldnt be so childish..

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Sunday, November 1, 2009

omg.. i think i still got loads to accomplish..

awwwwww~ dont wanna care.. shall finish one by one.. @@

hurhhhhh~~~~ TT.TT

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its useless for me to check it everyday isnt it?

everyday, most of the time.. its disappointing..

nothing gonna work.. its effect is from the heart..

nothing will succeed like this..

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Saturday, October 31, 2009

it really stopped as i predicted...

its useless hurh.. nothing is gonna work like this..

cherish it, or its gonna be nothing at all..

i created it, so shall delete it myself..

when the limit is up..

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im really very bored of doing...

feeling so rebellious inside. can i quit doing?

really.. very... bored.. really.. the whole day..

whats with me now.. so restless..

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tonnes and tonnes.

coming to blog a little before i start my day.. :)

two weeks just swam like that... hahaha.. its horrendously quick. i didnt even notice when was the event and there goes the week.. so now, i really had loads of work.. normally, i would also take note of it, but those projects are really early.. lecturers are giving out all their projects already.. and here i am, so sotong ..

didnt go for training today and hope i can complete most of them.. i must... TT.TT

shall go shooting tmr..

-Jap work, quiz+test

-Marketing tutorial

-Property tutorial

-Project management - 10 straits time article

-Hospitality tutorial - project based

-Urban planning interview editing

-Environment project

-Urban project

-House work-hamham cage =.=

love birds stops holding hands..

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Friday, October 30, 2009

Its.... FRIDAY~!!!!! :D

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~

thought about it, should i not delete some of my reckless posts? so after awhile when i grow older, i can read through and know how childish or hot tempered i am the last time.. can i??

i know i have been changing these 2 years, especially the one whom never had thought of speaking those vulgarities out but instead, enlighten some that do... so why am i acting so recklessly these days? i dont know.. an act of distress.. an act of frustrations...

well.. didnt had my urban planning presentation today.. half of the class will be presenting next week.. i finally recalled what im lack of.. its the pictures!!! so yippee~ i can edit the movie and present a better one...

my back is feeling uncomfortable... its the feeling i used to have.. cant control nor cure it... no position that makes me comfortable.. its annoying and irritating...

gonna stay in school after lectures for xixi's concert today evening.. xixi = joanne.. she is representing BE division for the singing competition today.. i pulled dar together too.. :x hee.. hmmm.. i dont feel myself these few days, truly speaking.. i feel weird.. not being myself.. i feel my schedules are messy.. and cant seems to settle down.. polite is nearing and im still shoot like shit.. how the earth is still spinning.. damn..

having an hour break now before another two hours lecture starts.. im so bored and tired.. this is so sickening...

dont know whats happening..

hoping for a little chemistry..

and...

taggy box is so quiet..

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Thursday, October 29, 2009

utterly...

you know what.. my back is fucking ache..

at least someone today saw the stuff i was bringing and said i shouldn't have such big bags.. its too much for me to carry and i will not grow taller.. and he lifted up my bag and reassured.. and that was without my laptop in it.. and guess what you said... because im lack of calcium.. sigh.. sometimes, sometimes... really really hoped you would 'ga ga lai'.. what u think is good.. i saw another scene today.. that was really nice.. warm.. but too bad, it isnt happening on me.. well.. im not always in a good mood too.. that funny feeling started since the day i know the result.. totally lost interest... its so difficult to stand up and not to even think of moving beside you... its an impossible case for me now..

damn moody..

can i release them?

#$%^&*^%&%$#@

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Wednesday, October 28, 2009

I'm so FULL~

ate alot of junk food recently.. hahahas...

my mouth cant stop man.. ate milo powder, ice cream and tidbits.. omgomgomg... of course with my meals too.. so u can imagine, how much fat will be growing soon.. hahaha..

my work are piling again.. sigh.. tired.. and LOADS of stuff havent start yet.. lecturers are giving out those projects already.. sigh.. they are rushing us man.. a little stressed up.. but i think im quite slack.. hahaha.. slack all i can.. dots.. so troublesome to have presentation on friday.. im so dead.. interviewed yet edit.. im like a snail... i need some motivations.. but im afraid a flick of finger may flick my shell away too.. TT.TT nowhere to sleep then.. :x

i have been over spending these few days.. sigh..

golden's limping isnt getting any better.. im worried.. but what else can i do.. im scared.. but it isnt helping..

should have loads of stuff on my mind but i cant think of much now.. well.. im not selected in the team.. reasons behind it, and i agreed too.. so yep.. looking on the bright side.. dont rise it up again kies.. i cant predict what may happen...

mum bought this white dress so hoping i will wear for sis wedding? and its so oh my tian... its like... Cinderella that white dress?! omg.. i cant wear it out but i got to say, its pretty.. but if i wear that out for shopping, people may think im insane!!! oh my..

old uncle....

honestly, i don't feel that well at all..

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Tuesday, October 27, 2009

FUCK!!!

I REALLY HATE THIS!!!

I QUIT!!!

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im always the extra one.. if i weren't there.. if there is a better replacement.. if... what if... it does hurt.. but im used to it already.. so what.. sigh.. i deserve it.. the odd one out..

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*Ting+YiJun+Angel*

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hope that they will be kept updated and active..

my gifts. <3

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cramp sucks.

a little emo..

but whatever it is, i'm not gonna stuck with it and cry.. zzzzz..

had a very painful morning, however, with warmth.. :)

really had a very bad cramp.. took two pills and still.. i cant stay still but curled up and rolling everywhere.. i don't know why.. has been quite awhile since i had such a pain...

had my jap quiz today.. was quite confidence with myself until i found out i wrote the population and the 'ku' word opposite.. it should be 127 when i wrote 137.. and 'ku' thats <> .... thats so sad la... oh my... unacceptable.. why those chim words i remember and not these.. zzzz.. thats so kuku and careless.. what the hell..

four hours lessons are really really too long.. so hard to concentrate.. i had myself playing this and that to make it seems alittle bit faster.. damn... waste of time... there is even more work to be completed by next week!!! and a writing test plus quiz... TT.TT awwwwwww~!!!! how to remember so many words sia~!!!!!

didnt went for training today...

thought i could rest from the cramp and also complete my work.. but guess what.. I MET YI JUN AT THE TPY BUS STOP!!!! :D weeee~~ heehee.. it has been 1.5 years since i last met her!!! omg.. im very happy till she said her first sentence... ''hello auntie!'' i totally sian.. LOL.. ok.. i know its kidding.. hahaha.. im still very happy to see her.. then accompanied her to wait for angel and in the mean while, we saw charmaine too~!! :D ftp gathering sia.. hahahhaa.. if its real, i'll be very happy.. i love people to gather together.. hee.. and of course those im close with.. its feel of happiness.. so we chat at the red circle luh.. :)

came back and was panicking.. i afraid that dad will find it too tired to take my interview.. while, that all, it doesnt seems like im interviewing, while it looks more like he is doing all the talking.. :p thanks daddy~ you are the BEST!!! hee.. :) daddy didnt mind to repeat himself for my needs, preparing himself and stuff.. its so warm.. :) and now, i got to do the editing and subtitle stuff.. urhhh... i feel so lazy.. hahaha..

sis wanted to jio me for prawning and after i rejected, she asked to go ktv.. :x its like so rare and honored.. but i dont have time.. she got her boy boy but mine? impossible for him to go out.. TT.TT well.. so in the end, i rejected as well.. dammit..

boo

choo wasted my rice :(

To Piggy: BLEAH..

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Monday, October 26, 2009

Konbanwa~ (good evening)

hee.. took up my IS module as japanese for this semester.. it seems easy but hectic.. loads of knowledge will just be pushed to you and you got to swallow them.. urhhhh... i had indigestion last week!! HA!! hmmm, tmr is another four long hours of torture PLUS quiz!!! something like spelling, but just, in jap.. TT.TT without jo and lao po men.. im so depressed~~!!!!!

today's schedule was quite a tight one.. 9am to 5pm with lectures and tutorials.. woah... really.. its very hard to digest them and even STAY AWAKE!! dots.. worst is, we cant even sms.. its so boring~...

after school, met up with dar and went to bugis to fix my spects.. that supporting rubber was torn.. torn by golden and missy whom gave me a bang each.. too happy to see me home, ran and couldnt stop.. haiz... quite touchie though.. LOL...

and yep~ GUESS WHAT I MET?!!! its TIFFANY~~!!! hahahahhahah... she has brighten up my entire day.. hahahahas... really... :) heeheehee..

the spects guy was very nice.. haha.. five stars for his customer service~!!! heehee.. glad dar willing to accompany me there.. its monday and bugis street was so squeezy already.. roar~~~ had a nice curry puff and ching chow drink :)

went home and prepare for the questions for dad's interview and then mapled awhile.. teeheehee.. finally can get my belt!!! but was kind of bored, so ended up with bleach watching.. heehee.. and now.. im blogging :x

tata~

seems like our feelings revised 2 years back..

i'm so in love with you.

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Sunday, October 25, 2009

Loving you till the MAX!!!! :]

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Fortunate.

omg, im so fortunate to have my friends hor.. especially buddy.. always help me when im in need and never asked for any return... *sob, touchie~* i appreciate them loads :)

last minute seek for buddy's help to help me print notes.. :x project management notes.. teeheehee.. hmmm.. tomorrow, starting of another hectic week.. till the next short break, we'll hang it there.. muhahahaha..

hee... my bad this morning, i broke dad's flush in his toilet.. :x

didnt know how i got the strength but yes indeed.. but something strike me... the aura of property manager suddenly strike like an arrow.. lol.. i know its weird to use arrow to express but thats my style? LOL... hmmm.. anyway, dad fixed it.. felt bad not doing anything though.. :x dont know how to fix la~ the wired in the rectangular thing broke.. not my fault la~~~ TT.TT maybe too old ler.. teeheehee :x

hmmmm... slacked the whole day today?

but did all my work la.. updating the accounts, doing a little nihon work, thinking of the questions for Urban Planning's interview, changing of ham ham cages with dardar :), and sending of emails.. teeheehee.. yay~~~ hee..

well well..

shall blog a little everyday and then...

memories :3

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OHAIYO~!!!! (morning)

heeheehee.. its been ages since i really had my last serious blogging.. well well.. read a person's blog that change my mood, my feelings and my thinkings.. oh my.. we really did grown up didnt we.. everything changes through the time.. i read from the start of building the blog and yes.. found out alot.. wow.. hahaha.. thats memories.. yes, thats why i like you to be blogging.. at least, i know what you are thinking or have been thinking.. did we grew up and forgot how to speak? expressing ourselves? i felt alot.. well.. slowly, i'll be picking it back.. i'll be the first one, and the rest may start to pick it back... i really miss those good old days.. those perfect and wonderful days.. if there wasnt those posts, i think i might have forgotten everything about it.. forgotten what we have gone through together, and stuff.. its.. a very sweet and nice feelings.. i miss you.. really.. nothing will stay the same, i'll improve it.. :)

little little messages melted my heart.

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Saturday, October 24, 2009

oh man..

i just read something and was totally affected by it... it was damn sweet... and its our past.. YES!! ours... oh my oh my oh my.. shall i feel happy or disgraced? sigh.. oh my oh my.. feeling very messy.. omg.. i don't know.. its this so bad.. arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! if u were here at this moment.. i'll... definitely....

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Friday, October 23, 2009

its not my game..

what choice do i ever left with..

this is so fucked up...

how to smoothen them out...

icy cold.

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Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Lost In Time.

oh my oh my.. holidays had just passed without being notice.. currently feeling super vex.. vex with the work in school, vex in shooting, vex with my family, vex with golden's health and vex with the time.. i seem so lost, lost in nowhere to be found.. i cant keep track of anything useful.. it just like flying oversea.. its worst than that feeling.. i dont know.. very worried.. very very worried indeed.. what if... and really... so what world the world be... i dont know..

nothing is going smooth...

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Monday, October 19, 2009

i have forgotten how to communicate...

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hais..

im in utter speechless..

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Sunday, October 11, 2009

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Tuesday, October 6, 2009

enjoyed yesterday LOADs ^^

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Saturday, October 3, 2009

she IS very pissed.

struggled hard to wake up this morning... went training with the help of daddy sending me to the bus stop.. lucky enough, bus 52 came less than 3 mins.. everything went as usual.. met dolly on my way through SIM.. shot 30m with 80cm face.. had quite a bad score but better than last time bah.. guang zhao let dolly, clarene and i tried the stabs and it was fun!! dolly and i had the hang of it.. but i know, it cost like a bomb to me.. sigh.. be blissful with whatever i had bah...

tried to rush home after that but still... got screamed by mum on my way back home... zzzzzzz... receive missed calls so i called back and what happened? was very emo then.. but well well.. nothing is wrong.. i promised to be home to help.. and now... zzzzzz.. well, these days had many car accident around my are.. i wonder why.. today's was the worst? ambulance and police all came.. haiyaiyai..

had loads to say but now they are gone.. whatever they are, will you get them in and react after that? if not, its useless so i decided not to blog.. whats the point.. i wonder.. vanishing... will there even be a different? i doubt so... its so short and i wonder will it last?

i found her which had the same feeling from him..

well... what a disappointing result...

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Thursday, October 1, 2009

what an emo day...

damn unlucky, even the entrance to the train station..

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..

do you ever know?

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are they lies...?

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Tuesday, September 29, 2009

MILO IS SO CUTE!!!!

*javi's* ^^

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Wednesday, September 23, 2009

another nightmare..

clear and shocking.

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Monday, September 21, 2009

wo dao di shi ni de she?

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congratulations to jie :]

zhu ni xin fu!!

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bad sleep...

again.. i dream of school!!! oh my..

having only 2 friends with me that i know in that school and we went oversea studies.. the lecture was like super big.. can sit 2 thousand students bah.. and im in the middle right behind.. how to see the screen? dont even know what the teacher is teaching.. then after that, in classroom, sat in rows and got bullied by a group of ah lian? but my best friend sat beside me didnt help to against something or anything.. free time, the two of my close friends went missing.. and its really i,me and myself.. omg.. luckily its a dream or i wont wanna study in that condition.. zzzz.. the two friends... should i say it out..? nvm then...

again and again..

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Sunday, September 20, 2009

maple not fun anymore..

my char so lan!!!

everyday got ks..

zzzzzzzz...

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29.09.2009

nice date, ultra boring day.

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leave it.

just let me be alright?

just.. feeling vex.. this annoying feeling.. cant sleep well nor do anything nicely.. this feeling.. sigh.. i dont know.. its very bad.. i cant say this up, its horrible.. a word to mention, 'pathetic'. i went through my list of friends and only picked the one and only.. unfortunately, she was occupied.. thinking i can go alone, but.. i dont know.. that feeling disappeared after he left.. called mum to see if i can meet her up, but gave up eventually after three calls, nobody picked up.. went around central and went home.. this kind of feeling, very familiar yet seems... just.. argh.. feeling very bad.. that feeling just like shouting in the deserted village as :"ANYONE THERE?!"

when will it be my turn...

whatever i wished for went the opposite way..

this holiday, my goal will never be met..

not even one... well well.. thats desperate...

bad, bad, very bad...

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its a kind of torture..

slow and easy..

right deep in it..

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Saturday, September 19, 2009

I MISS HIKI!

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Friday, September 18, 2009

had a thought...

i killed her indirectly.. leaving the ants alone and hope i dont hurt them, they dont hurt me.. but im wrong.. thoroughly wrong... its a disaster leaving the little poor ones terrified.. owners who wants to keep pet, please take good care of them. PLEASE. yes, act for myself too.

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May God Bless You.

Loves from everyone.

especially KiKi, Choo and Me.

Truely sorry, my baby.

4.25PM

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Wednesday, September 16, 2009

weak..

really feeling very weak..

had the feel of blacking out a few times..

since last week, had a bad sore throat then the cycle of fever, cough and flu.. but they are short term ones.. e.g. one or two days.. but till the flu stage, seems like everything is coming back on a sudden.. that big ulcer too.. it seems like getting bigger everyday.. super duper annoying.. cant even eat properly.. TT.TT every meal i got to eat for an hour.. haiyaiyai.. its so painful..

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Saturday, September 12, 2009

Mapled with choo yesterday :]

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Friday, September 11, 2009

had a really boring day...

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10.09.09

went to natalie's place after training..

her friend gave her and i baby hamsters~ weeeee~~

hee.. she took the black one and i took the white one..

very cute.. but my nini just bitten me TT.TT blahhhhh~~~

teeheehee.. thanky nat, thanky nat's friend :)

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09.09.09

had another wonderful day with you <3

thank you choo. :)

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maple episode 2..

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Thursday, September 10, 2009

very tired O.O..

had training in the morning with a start of drizzling..

so we had no choice but to do stats.. after that was quite nua, had an early lunch and started shooting with 30m, first with 122cm then 80cm face.. score did not differ much.. 268 and 260.. but i had problem with my sleeves.. the string will be caught with my left sleeve and went to the left just like the opposite C.. zzz.. in the end, got a clip from chih chye to solve the problem.. but had bad release.. so yup...

and TOK after that.. with chih chye and dom.. hmmm.. things are better but form still not there yet.. in such a short time, my form still not stable enough to reach consistancy.. so yup.. much more room for improvement.. hmm.. after that, waited for juniors to shoot alittle more.. and off we go.. wei lin lead me to nat house and ta da~ i saw the hamsters.. they are so kawaii~~~ hahaa.. really.. super... there is a black and white for me to choose and i chose the white one.. hee.. her name is "nini"~!!! heeheehee.. super cute.. shall upload some pic soon.. thats all for today bah..

golden seems to like nini alot too.. :)

was puzzled on my way back..

but since its the choice i've chosen..

take it..

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Wednesday, September 9, 2009

very bored..

dont know what to do.. sigh..

emi got attacked by a cockcroach.. a medium white one.. called me over and blah blah blah... the cockcroach climb from her hair to her neck.. think is due to the earlier flogging.. i think i killed alot of insects these few days.. no wonder so many nightmares hurh.. sigh.. my area is vested with insects man!! sigh.. im so bored..

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i cant get a good sleep...

air con off, light on, missy barks, playing of missy and sugar, whine of golden,

having nightmares/dreams and missy snatch my pillow AGAIN!!! zzzz... i just want a good rest thats all..

and now!! i cant fall asleep with all the noise.. haizz..

~ { 9:21 AM }
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Tuesday, September 8, 2009

things have changed...

changes so much that even i cant recognise them..

was in great disappointment.. just like what she did to the blog i made for her.. exactly the same feeling.. but this time, it was greater.. sigh.. what else can i do? was desperately wanting to play with you since monday.. or maybe much earlier when the exams were going to start.. but now... sigh.. dont wanna touch it anymore.. its so.. sigh.. nvm...

~ { 11:10 PM }
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just not my day today..

pms? but its not now.. just moody...

im a total lousy archer.. broke another arrow today..

i thought if i up pound, my sight will be able to decrease, but i guess im wrong.. used my old wooden bow string.. but heard from choo, blah blah.. i've forgotten.. something gonna do with the string de... its just.. zzzz.. i dont know.. so the problem lies with me.. its me.. me me me... when will i ever been enlightened...?

shot 30m for today, 122cm face and 80cm face..

though my scores are improving alittle, but my grouping isnt there yet..

sigh.. i feel my right shoulder is tearing apart.. zzzz.. i dont wanna be weak nor i will give it up.. i know the only solution is to shoot more.. i really want for 6 straight arrows.. and... my shooting form to be stable.. please be stableeeee~~~~...

well.. for other stuff..

i know.. deep inside myself.. yea.. dont hope too high.. i know my day dreaming wont come through.. just.. be realistic pleasssse!! argh.... well.. i will, i will.. i will enjoy de.. just.. bear with it.. nothing we can do for the time being.. i know daddy is worried about my happen to me when i came back today.. it just not me.. im so guilty to spend money again.. my eslink card and stuff too.. told him i wont pay myself.. but.. the feeling inside isnt good.. :((((

tmr.. i was very looking forward for tomorrow.. but...

well.. i dont know.. everything was brought down... i guess it will be that.. i know.. and i will be more mature.. well.. sigh.. i dont know... im lost..

well..

shall stop here then...

~ { 8:13 PM }
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